eating oranges...

It's 2:45am, i just got home... i'm drunk... i'm tired... i don't feel good at all... and i'm eating oranges... lol... i have been drinking since 4:00pm this afternoon at the poker tournament at the casino. i finished 12th place out of 60+ which isn't that bad since it was my first live tourney. i really enjoyed the whole experience... meeting new people and all that, laughing at the sick sick beats(my pocket A's lost to quad 5's LOLOLOL!), and just playing poker with them... but if someone asks me if i prefer live poker over online poker, i'd say i prefer ONLINE POKER! two reasons...

first... i don't like the whole live poker scene here that much... that whole environment revolves around gambling and money... it is not like online poker where the guys who play on the internet are there for the challenge and try to be the best poker player they can be... i saw some people at the casino who looked like they had 9 to 5 jobs, there at the tables GAMBLING... not GRINDING... but actually GAMBLING! i'm not looking down at these people and i know it's none of my business, but c'mon... there is certainly something wrong with that picture... i might be mistaken, but if i'm not... man, they are gambling on a budget... that's just plain wrong... but you can also see the really rich guys gambling, which is cool cos it is their way to relax i guess...

second... there is this HUGE possibility i could go broke if i start playing at the casino often... i find it easy, hypothetically, to blow all my money playing the tables there.. though i didn't actually play at the live cash tables, just watching the people pulling out their wallets for more money after getting bust was so bad to see in my opinion. it's just... i dunno... BAD... picture this... a guy who is a 9 to 5'er pulling out what he made this month after getting bust to gamble at the table, and a really rich guy beside him... nice... it's none of my business, i know... i'm drunk and i'm just typing my thoughts away as they come... so yeah, i could picture myself blowing all the money i saved up at the casino... and i do not want that to happen... i might go broke online, yeah, but that would be a different story...

i wrote this not because i look down at those people... or that i look down at that whole casino scene... it's just... i'm afraid of it...

-choy

... but i will still continue to play live tournaments tho... they are fun :-)